the latest

well, today I woke up really early, but I couldn't move. I feel pretty crippled with depression. I started clearing out some things, and I started finding books. I started reading, and just basically felt lethargic. I had no drive. I took most of the day to even go and get breakfast. A few things set me off. Wanting to get up and write, and not having the energy to even start. This is the most writing I've done today. My second mistake was grabbing an old issue of US magazine. This thing put me into a mad depressive state. I'ts a long story, but I like to write stories, and there's this new movie with Anne Hathaway out, and she's gorgeous, but there's sex scenes in it. Now the article was saying how the writing is horrible, but the scenes are hot. It made me think, why bother writing movies, if people don't care about a story. If Hollywood is drenched with sex scenes that override story. It sickens me...Then I go to the Subway, they are playing Hanson's Mmmm-Bop. As a sort of musician that never made it, or never tried hard enough, I detested hearing it. I was like "wow what poignant lyrics". I was even going to run, that usually puts me in a better mood. I didn't even feel like running. things are just nasty depressing. I just have to play it where it lies.