Crisis Log

I live in a gym, in the side room. I sorta had to. I went to court in November, and basically got evicted. It had been coming for a while. I sort of stopped paying rent, and never caught back up. I fell too far behind. I had all of these Grand plans to catch up. They all fell through. Now I'm here, trying to pick up the pieces. Half of my stuff in in Altamont/Knox, NY. The other half is here, in the gym.
I just got back from a trip Upstate. I stayed at my Father's place. One of the reasons I went is to gather the things that I left there on Christmas. The other was to get away. I am at this gym and it gets to me when I'm here too much. I can't escape the noise. I put in earplugs , but the sound still seeps in. I have to actually remove myself. Part of the crisis is that this is my only income, ok I deliver papers too. With my car. I mean my Dad's car, well it's in my Dad's name but I'm paying for it. That is when I can make the payments. Which reminds me, one is due today. I suppose that I could be thankful for having a job. It's a pretty simple one too. The hours suck though. 5am-10am. I've been doing it since July of 2010. I'm really just sort of used to it at this point.
The crisis part of my life is this.....I used to be in the entertainment field. Sort of. I was a guitarist/vocalist, and now I'm not gigging. I was also doing comedy, and now I'm not doing that. I enjoyed these activities. I sort of have the day gig, so that I can do the other stuff. I'm not doing the other stuff.
I wouldn't have been evicted, had I had a job that paid at least $300 a week, and that paid weekly. This country is very job-challenged right now. Including Upstate NY. People have stopped looking, including me. So I sit here trying to figure out how to get out of my self-pity, and find a way to pay the money back. So there's a slow and erratic growth in the economy. Kinda like me, slow and erratic.