still in crisis, haven't heard back from car place about car. Maybe it's not a crisis, maybe I'm making it one. Either way, I'm still not on the road. There's nothing like sending multiple texts and calls to a place that won't give me a status report. I have no options at this point. I don't have money stashed, I have poor credit. I just called a friend Ted that might help, a Bethany answered. I called Vermont number again only to get a changed or disconnected number. I'm about to say FML, but there is some glimmer of hope. My friend Chris teaches at BOCES, which is near where I used to work. If I could get a ride from him, and get picked up at BOCES. I may be able to make some money, while I'm waiting for the car deal to resolve. I have a fuel pump sitting here too, for a possible Neon to drive. I spent $140 on it, and I have no place to fix it. Maybe Chris can help me there too. I must call him. On top of all of this seemingly BS, is the fact that my on and off again Ex-girlfriend, has decided to give her new boyfriend a chance to have a relationship with her.it's a messed up thing, or at least it was. She wanted the freedom to do what she wanted meaning, if she wanted me to come over(which I did) I could spend the night. Only problem is she was staying over to her possible new boyfriends' place if she wanted to. I went through a whole spectrum of emotions, fear, jealousy, hate, hope happiness, loss. I feel like I'm invisible to most of the world, I've asked facebook that has 300+ friends to help with rides or a garage. NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!! They either don't have it, or they can't help. Seems ridiculous that I don't have the resources I need to succeed, at least for right now. 3:50 pm Crisis may be averted, called Chris, he can give me a lift, if there's work. That's if my old boss doesn't do an all-or-nothing on me. Meaning he may not have me work if I can't be there the hours we wants me there, I can only do 8-2, due to my ride. Waiting on that, or else I slip back into my dark place.