still in crisis, haven't heard back from car place about car. Maybe it's not a crisis, maybe I'm making it one. Either way, I'm still not on the road. There's nothing like sending multiple texts and calls to a place that won't give me a status report. I have no options at this point. I don't have money stashed, I have poor credit. I just called a friend Ted that might help, a Bethany answered. I called Vermont number again only to get a changed or disconnected number. I'm about to say FML, but there is some glimmer of hope. My friend Chris teaches at BOCES, which is near where I used to work. If I could get a ride from him, and get picked up at BOCES. I may be able to make some money, while I'm waiting for the car deal to resolve. I have a fuel pump sitting here too, for a possible Neon to drive. I spent $140 on it, and I have no place to fix it. Maybe Chris can help me there too. I must call him. On top of all of this seemingly BS, is the fact that my on and off again Ex-girlfriend, has decided to give her new boyfriend a chance to have a relationship with her.it's a messed up thing, or at least it was. She wanted the freedom to do what she wanted meaning, if she wanted me to come over(which I did) I could spend the night. Only problem is she was staying over to her possible new boyfriends' place if she wanted to. I went through a whole spectrum of emotions, fear, jealousy, hate, hope happiness, loss. I feel like I'm invisible to most of the world, I've asked facebook that has 300+ friends to help with rides or a garage. NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!! They either don't have it, or they can't help. Seems ridiculous that I don't have the resources I need to succeed, at least for right now. 3:50 pm Crisis may be averted, called Chris, he can give me a lift, if there's work. That's if my old boss doesn't do an all-or-nothing on me. Meaning he may not have me work if I can't be there the hours we wants me there, I can only do 8-2, due to my ride. Waiting on that, or else I slip back into my dark place.

back blogging after a 3-year hiatus. I read the last entry about losing the job. Since then I've had a few jobs, and a working car. That is up until my car finally broke a few weeks ago. Since then I've had that crisis too. I still have the no work in Whitehall thing, except there may be some hope. I had the car towed to a place that has used cars for sale. I may get a Focus ZX5 in exchange for detailing services. Everything being a process, the first step was to get a title. Last I spoke to the owner was two days ago, and there should be one coming hopefully sooner than later. I'm chomping at the bit to drive again. The trick is what to do in the meantime so I don't obsess.